Dating

I'm missing out on a quintessential part of life. I haven't dated in years. Years! Why?! Why am I doing this to myself? Yes, loss sucks, and there's at least as much pain to find as joy, but there is joy... & life... & it means something, doesn't it? It's fleeting, but it's worth it. Right? It seems to be. Why else does everyone keep doing it? Why am I not out there? Is it sacrilege to not even try? The gods know I want to find something meaningful! It's just... I don't expect to. Is that reason enough not to try? Damn. I don't even know how to begin.